what do you do when
all the decorations fall
and it’s too much
effort to keep it alive

you stare at the wall and
everybody searches on your bed
trying to find
all their coats

watch it all
watch it all go down in flames
with music in the background
it’s not what you imagined
watch it all go down in flames
with laughter in the background
it’s not what you imagined

all of your so-called friends
didn’t fix the void
the medicine cabinet couldn’t fill

you tried everything
that you could think of
to keep your spirits up
but all of it’s falling apart

it’s time for you to stop
acting on your fear
that maybe God is
smaller than you say he is

you of so much love
you of little faith
what if you just stepped out on the water

you fight it in your head
you know it in your heart
believe what you say or shut up about it
or their just words
it’s all in your hands now
let go